I thought that running away from you I would have time to figure out our relationship. I though that while I was away I could heal and think and organize. I thought that I had done all this. I have returned only to realize that not only am I mistaken but I was completely naive to think that the time I spent in solitude would suddenly make everything okay. I still have a lot to learn about you as do you about me. I have high hopes though. I think I am more willing to work it out. There are times that I absolutely feel like running away again and not dealing with a single thing, it's easier you know? But I know now how I think, how I process life, and how to control myself. At least I'm starting too.
Things are finally starting to settle down it seems. The overwhelming feelings are starting to recede while the feelings of dissatisfaction are brewing. I will get ahead of it all. I'm ready for you this time and I planning on proving it.
I would however like to thank you from the bottom of my heart Portland for being here, exactly the same, waiting for me. While there are things that have changed; skeleton buildings where two block holes once were, old coffee shops becoming new ones that seem to only have new graphics, and people who are new to you but the same to me, I'm glad that you are around. And always will be.
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