Chocolate x3

Dear Portland,
I finally did some baking today!!
I came home in the late afternoon with a strong urge to turn on the oven and make me some happiness (even with the 80 degree weather bearing down). After I returned from figuring out some work shifts I will be covering at Flora, I sat down at my computer and looked through cookie archives on some of my favorite baking blogs. And then I found it.
TRIPLE CHOCOLATE COOKIES.
Yes. Absolutely tempting just from the title. I read through the recipe and wrote down a couple things I needed and drove to the store just as fast as my little truck could take me. It took a little longer then I had hoped because the sunshing seems to be turning everyone into horribly mad drivers and I was contiuously avoiding almost accidents.

I came home read through the recipe again and put on a podcast from How Stuff Works called "How Traffic Works" and away I went. It was wonderful to be back in that world again. A house to myself, learning about something completely irrelevant, and creating chewy goodness.
They came out great, if I had a flour sifter they would be perfection. But for now, greatness will have to do.

Upon Return

Dear Portland,
I thought that running away from you I would have time to figure out our relationship. I though that while I was away I could heal and think and organize. I thought that I had done all this. I have returned only to realize that not only am I mistaken but I was completely naive to think that the time I spent in solitude would suddenly make everything okay. I still have a lot to learn about you as do you about me. I have high hopes though. I think I am more willing to work it out. There are times that I absolutely feel like running away again and not dealing with a single thing, it's easier you know? But I know now how I think, how I process life, and how to control myself. At least I'm starting too.

Things are finally starting to settle down it seems. The overwhelming feelings are starting to recede while the feelings of dissatisfaction are brewing. I will get ahead of it all. I'm ready for you this time and I planning on proving it.

I would however like to thank you from the bottom of my heart Portland for being here, exactly the same, waiting for me. While there are things that have changed; skeleton buildings where two block holes once were, old coffee shops becoming new ones that seem to only have new graphics, and people who are new to you but the same to me, I'm glad that you are around. And always will be.

Adjustments

Dear Portland,
You SURROUND me.
I am home.
I don't feel very homey though.
I am busy doing important and unimportant things.
I will start writing again soon.
I just need a little bit of time to finish getting organized.

I spent 4 days in Veneta. At the Oregon Country Fair. It was wonderful as always.